Figured it outAfter looking over Ryuji's pic, and shuffling through the older crap I've done, I came to the realization that I was never lacking skills nor effort at drawing. The real truth as to why I fell the fuck apart as an artist was all the ungrateful bastards who I associated with for the longest time, people whom I drew stuff for, who never in fact did repay the favor in any sense, and I noted that I did in fact start to have a grudge halfway in...and halfway out, just lost interest in even looking at these people the same way again.
I also began to read over hundreds of online convo-logs and realized, most of them didn't have much respect for either my work, my creations, or art in general. It was all "lulz and bullshit" to them. This whole flipflop of ideals and such that would seemingly change like the weather for almost a fucking year, IS the reason I barely even want to draw anything anymore. Oh so much fun, but so fucking serious 20-30 minutes later. People want harsh no bullshit crits and then get annoyed when you give it to them...and so many two faced cocksuckers who drained me of everything I was that it's a wonder I can even still think straight about anything. Either way, I was never wrong. I was in fact 100% right...shame is I was lead to believe I sucked, that others were better, and that I should just shut up and draw. As if talking about technique and styles was an issue, or asking for advice was some sort of a crime.
You go through my gallery here, and you see it. When I return to drawing I tell you this here and now-
I won't be wasting my time like that again...and half my work and service for others, was just that:
A WASTE OF FUCKING TIME, MY TIME, WHICH I CAN NEVER GET BACK.
You literally sapped away my will to do something I used to live for, and at this point in my life I can say without holding back, that I'm moving on finally, and I'm glad I got this out of my system once and for all. Oh and for those wondering, this expands far past the forum days, which like the other past events, I'm burying with a hatchet here and now.
From now on, I'll draw for myself, and any extensions I make, are for people who are worth a damn to me, as friends. This is of course, why DL's two OC's showed up in that commission, but that's just a FYI that should have been obvious.
Disgust
Devious Comments
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As I was a-walking down Paradise Street,
To me way-aye, blow the man down.
A pretty young damsel I chanced for to meet.
Give me some time to blow the man down!
I hope things get better for you, man.
Uhm.. Hun, am I included in the people you don't like list? Seeing as we used to talk (a lot) then you just... vanished and I haven't really talked to you since.
Anwyay, fuck what others think and just draw for yourself.
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A pretty girl can kiss a guy
A bee can kiss a butterfly
The morning sun can kiss the grass
But you my friend can kiss my ass
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What you've just said is exactly why I've become so distant form drawing. Time was where I loved nothing more than to draw my characters, but they weren't interested in how good I draw... And when I chose to distance myself from it, many hardly wanted to know me anymore.
I know I'm just as guilty for not commenting on many of your works, and I'm sorry for that... But if it's any consolation, you may have finally gotten me out of my funk and got me back in the mood for drawing again.
Fuck it, here's to a new start for you! ^^
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And now, A Word from Rascal... [link]
If someone complains about your art without constructive critism? Tough on them. It's THEIR perspective why they don't like it and not yours.
Being creative is all about doing things your way, not what others think of what you do for them. You just do what you want to do for drawing.
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"Your right hand comes off?" -Leon from RE4
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I used to do the same, draw for others. Requests were taking my life and I decided to stop accepting it for good! When I created Ursula some people said awful things to make me stop drawing her because she was chubby. Hopefully I decided to draw what I wanted and she's one of my most loved OCs now.
So just keep up the good work! You know that I luv your gallery, your OCs and artwork, and I hope to see more coming from you!
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Lead us not into temptation... Just point us in the general direction and we'll find it ourselves.
And I agree with ryuji-kun; your art has room for improvement (but that's true for ALL of us), but it's very cute and has a distinctive, fresh style. So I'm glad you're going to start up again and refocusing on the kinds of drawings you like. To hell with anyone who doesn't appreciate your efforts.
Okay, I'll get off my soapbox now...
Well, you can go ahead and tell me if I am, it's no big deal.
Hope I'm not in that list of people you don't like. I mean, yeah, in the past, we had run-ins, and we hardly (if ever) talk at all, but hey. I've always respected your artistry, and I mean that, dude. XD
I kind of feel like I might be, though, given that one Matsy pic. Hoo. Now I feel like I owe you. I'll have to look into this. After all, if I feel I have a debt to pay then I'll seek that out, y'know?
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